Soundtrack

The Madness of Mr Goth now has a soundtrack on Spotify. Click below to open in Spotify (if you have it installed), or click here to open in the Spotify Web Player. If you don’t have a Spotify account, you can get one free at spotify.com.

Song-by-song quick listening guide (WARNING: SPOILERS)

Lana Del Rey – Once Upon A Dream
If I know you, I know what you’ll do; you’ll love me at once, the way you did Once Upon a Dream

Valois introduces himself and the man whose life he’s been shadowing for years.

Adam Lambert – Runnin’
One shot and the whisky goes down, down, down. Bottom of the bottle hits, waking up my mind as I throw a fit. The breaking is taking me down, down, down.

Gunther tries to avoid returning home, drowning his loveless marriage in alcohol at a local dive bar.

David Sylvian – Darkest Dreaming
Stay tonight. We’ll watch the full moon rising. Hold on tight; the sky is breaking.

Arriving home, Gunther sees Lolita and clings to the love that he once had for her.

Jenn Bostic – Not Yet
Life has got me out of breath, tired from giving you all I have.

The next morning, Cornelia confronts Gunther up in the attic, where he’s escaped to for some peace and quiet. They argue yet again and he’s forced to get ready for the charade of their annual party.

Evgeny Kissin – Beethoven’s Piano Concerto No. 5 in E-Flat Major (Adagio un Poco Mosso) (“The Emperor”)
Instrumental

Midway through the party, when Gunther can’t take any more, he retreats to the study and sits at the piano. Valois appears out of nowhere and plays Beethoven to soothe him.

Oceanlab – Breaking Ties
You provide the parachute when I am falling like a stone, and I remember there’s a life that I have not lived yet.

The morning after the party, Gunther can’t get Valois out of his head. He tracks down where he lives, and takes a huge risk, going to visit him. He finds a safe haven and someone who finally listens and understands, and he spends the night there.

Yazoo – Ode To Boy
When he drives I love to watch his hands, white and smooth; almost feminine.

Waking in the morning, Gunther finds Valois cooking breakfast, stark naked. Fascinated by his pale skin, Gunther can’t help himself. He makes a move.

Steve Harley and Cockney Rebel – Sebastian
Mangle my mind, love me sublime, do it in style

They spend the whole weekend in bed together, but finally Gunther knows he must go home.

Birdy – Standing in the Way of the Light
Through the driving rain I have lost the words, to piece us back together, to tell you how it hurts.

Arriving home late at night and sneaking into his bedroom, Gunther is confronted by Cornelia, who accuses him of having a mistress, tells him the town is talking about them, and how she’s decided they’re going to have a baby to shut the town up. She practically forces him into sex, and he can’t resist it.

Thin Lizzy – The Rocker
I am your main man if you’re looking for trouble

The next day, restless, Gunther goes for a nighttime walk and comes across a jogger who looks like Valois. Going to speak to him, he’s utterly confused to find the guy is Valois, but isn’t. He’s a rockstar, and he happens to think Gunther’s kinda cute and should come home with him. They spend the night together

ZZ Top – Tush
I’ve been bad, I’ve been good. Dallas, Texas, Hollywood. I ain’t asking for much. I said Lord, take me downtown. I’m just lookin’ for some tush.

In the morning, Gunther and rockstar!Valois are rudely awoken by Cal and Ten, members of Valois’s band.

Fleetwood Mac – Gold Dust Woman
Well, did she make you cry? Make you break down? Shatter your illusions of love?

Valois suddenly turns up at Gunther’s home, in yet another guise – that of a bookseller – finding Cornelia there alone. He divines that she’s pregnant and – when Gunther comes home – he gets him alone and confronts him about it, eventually telling Gunther that he has a deep, hidden submissive nature, and Gunther gets very defensive.

Arcadia – The Promise
With a promise-dealer understand all freedoms fade away

After rough, con/noncon sex, bookseller!Valois gaslights Gunther, confusing him further, taking him to his knees and drawing him into a distressed state where he makes a promise that he can’t even remember.

Suicide Commando – Dead March
Everything that has a beginning… has an end.

In yet another guise, Valois visits Death. The Lords call him ‘beast’ because they despise him. He cannot die.

Gary Numan – The Calling
You don’t hear me. You don’t see me. You don’t even know I’m alive. So why do you call me?

Death finds out that Valois wants a favour: eternal life for a man he claims is his companion. The Lords tell him he can have it, if his companion sacrifices the one thing in the world that means the most to him.

Leonard Cohen – Everybody Knows
Everybody knows that the boat is leaking, everybody knows that the captain lied. Everybody got this broken feeling, like their father or their dog just died.

At work the next day, Gunther talks to his secretary. Natalie not only works for him; she’s also a sympathetic shoulder, and an ego-pricker with a wicked sense of humour. Gunther learns from her that he’s not the only one with marital problems; she’s struggling, too.

Roxy Music – More Than This
No care in the world, maybe I’m learning why the sea on the tide has no way of turning.

Deciding to spend the night in his suite at the office rather than go home, Gunther finds Valois there. Momentarily panicked – which version is this?! – he realises it’s the one who saved him, and there’s an emotional reunion.

Roxy Music – Avalon
The picture’s changing, every moment, and your destination, you don’t know it.

Waking in the morning, Gunther and Valois make love for hours, in bed, in the shower. Gunther has never felt this open and free.

Kate Bush – And So Is Love
We used to say, “Ah hell, we’re young.” But now we see that life is sad, and so is love.

In the afternoon, another chat with Natalie has Gunther learning that her marriage is almost as on the rocks as his own is. Valois walks in, and Natalie instinctively knows he’s a witch, because she has a small amount of the Craft within herself, inherited from her mother.

Annie Lennox – A Whiter Shade of Pale
Although my eyes were open wide they might just as well been closed.

In the wake of Natalie’s revelation, finally exhausted by the turns his life has taken, Gunther collapses and is taken to hospital.

Ferry Corsten feat. Betsie Larkin – Not Coming Down
Maybe that’s the point of it: learning that the road don’t end. To look around, enjoy the sound, and take the beauty in.

Valois takes Gunther to France to recouperate and they spend several blissful months there, although Gunther only thinks they’ve been there for a few weeks…

The Azoic – Let Me Tell You Something
It’s my life, I will not give up that easy. You cannot break me down.

Back in Sunset Valley, Cornelia’s sister comes back from vacation to find her heavily pregnant and about to give birth. Cornelia admits she only had the child to try and keep Gunther.

Madonna – Sky Fits Heaven
Sky fits heaven so fly it. That’s what the prophet said to me. Child fits mother so hold your baby tight. That’s what my future could see.

Still in France, Valois begins to teach Gunther magic, but at the end of the day he’s clearly distracted by something.

Delerium feat. Sarah McLachlan – Silence
Passion chokes the flower, ti’ll she cries no more. Possessing all the beauty, hungry still for more.

Cornelia gives birth to a baby girl and takes her home. Exhausted, she goes to bed, but suddenly is woken by a presence in the room…

Delerium – Angelicus
Instrumental

The battle for possession of the baby. Cornelia tries her hidden witchcraft on Valois, who defeats her easily, telling her he is outside time and space and she cannot touch him. He tells her nobody will remember the child, and he offers to wipe her memories. She refuses, and he informs her that she will go mad because nobody but her will know about the baby. He leaves with the baby as Cornelia sends a flame spell out to him that sets fire to the house. Valois takes the baby to Death and hands her over: the most precious thing his companion owns. The Lords grant Gunther immortality in return.

Duran Duran – Come Undone
Mine, immaculate dream made breath and skin, I’ve been waiting for you.

Valois returns to France and, when Gunther wakes at midnight, something happens to leave him feeling very out-of-sorts. The hourglass of his life has been shattered and he is now immortal, like Valois; but he doesn’t know it. They spend yet another day close to each other, making love, and then Gunther receives a distraught phone call from Natalie, telling him he has to return home.

Athlete – Wires
You got wires, going in. You got wires, coming out of your skin. You got tears, making tracks. I got tears, that are scared of the facts.

Arriving on a red-eye flight back at Sunset Valley, Gunther rushes to the hospital where Cornelia is. The doctors tell him she’s not burned but there are serious concerns for her mental state. She keeps screaming for her baby, but there are no records of a baby. Even her sister doesn’t know what she’s talking about.

Muse – Madness
I can’t get these memories out of my mind. And some kind of madness has started to evolve.

Valois realises he can’t reach Gunther in the hospital, as somehow it’s shielded from his magic. Instead, he manipulates the doctor who is caring for Cornelia, to get her committed to a secure unit so he can have Gunther back.

Kate Bush – This Woman’s Work
It’s hard on the man, now his part is over. Now starts the craft of the father.

Mortimer arrives at the hospital, having been sent home from boarding school. He and Gunther have a heart-to-heart, with Gunther admitting he and Cornelia no longer love each other, and Mortimer finds out that Gunther is actually bisexual and now has a boyfriend.

The Cinematic Orchestra – To Build A Home
This is a place where I don’t feel alone. This is a place where I feel at home.

With the manor damaged by fire, Gunther buys a small home on the outskirts of town, and Mortimer and Valois help him to move in. Mortimer is worried that Valois doesn’t want him around, but Gunther reassures him he’s loved and wanted. Valois visits and cooks dinner for them all, and Mortimer finally accepts him as part of the family.

R.E.M. – At My Most Beautiful
I count your eyelashes secretly. With every one, whisper I love you.

Valois first broaches the subject of a collar for Gunther, who is uncertain but willing to try.

Depeche Mode – Somebody
Someone who’ll stand by my side and give me support, and in return she’ll get my support.

Back at the office, Gunther tells Natalie of his plans to divorce Cornelia and that he also has to come out to the company and the town now that Mortimer knows about Valois. In turn, he finds out that Natalie’s marriage has almost completely broken down, and he tells her he’ll do anything for her, to help her out. He also confesses that, had they both been single, he would have asked her on a date.

Abel Korzeniowski – Satin Birds
Instrumental

In a panic about talking to Nick Alto to try and get him on-side for the company meeting, Gunther calls Valois, who arrives within seconds. A soothing head massage and reassurance that Nick will understand, and Gunther is ready to face his colleague.

Michael Bublé – You’ve Got A Friend In Me
When the road looks rough ahead, and you’re miles and miles from your nice warm bed, you just remember what your old pal said: yeah, you’ve got a friend in me.

Nick is a huge surprise, acccepting not only Gunther’s plans for divorce, but also his admission of his sexuality, even insisting on helping to cushion the blow by using his contacts in the media.

Hans Zimmer – The Might of Rome
Instrumental

Relieved, Gunther leaves the office and makes his way to the manor to check on repairs. While weeding Lolita’s grave he’s confronted by a sleazy reporter who accuses him of profiting from Cornelia’s committal. A fight ensues, Gunther knocks the hack out and is arrested. His lawyer bails him out and Valois fetches him home, furious when he sees the bruises and scratches on his lover’s face.

Lisa Gerrard – Elegy
Instrumental (unintelligible vocals)

When he wakes, Gunther is tended to by Valois. Their relationship deepened by trust, Gunther finally submits, allowing Valois to collar him. The love and relief that he experiences as a result makes him realise he’s come home.

Aqualung – Strange and Beautiful (I’ll Put A Spell On You)
I’ve been watching your world from afar, I’ve been trying to get where you are, and I’ve been secretly falling apart, unseen.

A confession from Valois. (And this song is pretty much his theme for the story)

Sarah McLachlan – Angel
Spend all your time waiting for that second chance, for a break that would make it okay. There’s always some reason to feel not good enough, and it’s hard at the end of the day.

Gunther’s emotional relief at finally, finally feeling at home.

Robert Miles feat. Maria Naylor – Naked and Sacred
Since I met you my life’s changed. I feel like a bird that’s been let out of its cage.

Sinking deeper into submission, Gunther slowly learns to be comfortable at Valois’s feet, naked and fed by hand.

Elbow – One Day Like This
What made me behave that way, using words I’d never say? I can only think it must be love. Well anyway, it’s looking like a beautiful day.

The next morning, Gunther gets ready for work, and the meeting that he’s been dreading.

Gary Numan – Complex
Please, keep them away. Don’t let them touch me. Please, don’t let them lie. Don’t let them see me.

Before the meeting, Gunther admits his fear to Valois, who comforts him through it and uses magic to calm him.

Mick Karn – Sensitive
All the people see me as a fool. All the people say that it’s because of you. All the people like to think they care. If you’d shake their hands then stab them, maybe they’d become sensitive.

The meeting is almost a disaster, but somehow it turns out all right. Gunther has no idea whether Valois was working magic in the room next door, but at the end of it all he’s ready to collapse in Valois’s arms as they’re left alone.

The Czars – Song to the Siren
Long afloat on shipless oceans, I did all my best to smile. ’til your singing eyes and fingers drew me loving into your arms.

Valois calms Gunther and drives him home. Once there, he offers Gunther a gift.

Antony & the Johnsons – Hope There’s Someone
There’s a man on the horizon, wish that I’d go to bed. If I fall to his feet tonight, will allow rest my head.

The gift is a collar and cuffs. Valois and Gunther finally seal their earthly contract, and Gunther is now bound to Valois, just as Valois is bound to him.

Madonna – Little Star
You are a treasure to me. You are my star. You breathe new life into my broken heart.

Gunther visits Mortimer, who is staying with his best friend, Esther. While he’s talking to Esther’s father, Gunther realises that his little boy is falling in love.

Plumb – Damaged
You can’t take back what you’ve taken away.

Arriving home, Gunther wakes Valois from a walk in the Veil. As they talk, Valois finally brings up the subject of Gunther’s immortality. Devastated, Gunther knows he’ll have to bury his own son one day. Utterly distraught, he runs from the house and drives off.

Wardruna – Helvegen
When you stand by the Gate of Death and you have to tear free, I shall follow you across the Resounding Bridge with my song.

Driving through the night in increasingly-bad weather, Gunther ends up in a thick forest. Lost, frightened, and without any protection from the severe weather, he thinks he’s about to die. Then, up ahead, he spots a house.

Adam Lambert – Broken Open
Broken pieces, break into me. So imperfectly what you should be.

The house belongs to Valois. Somehow, Gunther has found his way into the Veil. Overwhelmed and distressed, he collapses. Waking up several hours later, he finally gives in and starts to come to terms with his immortality.

Jason Mraz – I Won’t Give Up
When I look into your eyes it’s like watching the night sky, or a beautiful sunrise; there’s so much they hold. And just like them old stars I see that you’ve come so far to be right where you are. How old is your soul?

Reconciled with Valois, Gunther finally discovers how old Valois is, and realises that his lover has been lonely for over a thousand years.

Dave Carter and Tracy Grammer – The Mountain
I see the mountain; the mountain comes to me. I see the mountain, and that is all I see.

Worried, because Gunther hasn’t shown up for work and his phone isn’t even going to voicemail, Natalie calls on her mum Esme and requests a crystal ball reading for him. They discover that he’s in the Veil, but when Esme sends Valois’s name into the Veil she is roughly thrown out.

Alex Parks – Mad World
I find it hard to tell you, ’cause I find it hard to take. When people run in circles it’s a very very mad world.

Gunther forces a promise out of Valois: no more lies. Valois swears on the ring that he always wears that he will never lie again.

George Michael – The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face (live)
The first time ever I saw your face, I thought the sun rose in your eyes. And the moon and the stars were the gifts you gave to the dark and empty skies, my love.

Valois carries Gunther into the depths of the Veil and there they complete their promise, binding themselves to each other in the memory of the Veil.

David Sylvian – Orpheus
Sunlight falls, my wings open wide. There’s a beauty here I cannot deny.

At peace, at last. Gunther curls up with Valois and finally, finally feels safe.

This post (and the playlist) will be updated with new songs as each chapter goes live :)

2 responses

    • It would actually work very well for that, and – if I ever expanded the ‘Sunlight’ story of their lives together then that would be its theme. I picked ‘Darkest Dreaming’ for this story because it’s a song about begging someone you love to stay with you through the long night of a terrible time in your life.

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